I Took ONE Baby Step to Move My Life Forward...
Updated: Aug 24, 2018
One small step is all I needed. At the time I didn’t know that and I certainly didn’t know what a small step would look like. I was lost! I had no direction and I didn’t know who I was or what I wanted in my life. Here I was, almost fifty years old and I found myself still searching for “the answer” the “you finally made it” “you’re successful” moment in my life.
I had a job, in the same field for the last twenty five years, I was married and divorced, I had three beautiful daughters and I had some savings in the bank. What happened? Where did the time go? How come I didn’t have a handle on it yet? To top it off I had just left an unhealthy four year relationship and I found myself living at the home of wonderful, caring friends. They took me in when I was at my bottom, not knowing who I was anymore or what my next step was. They listened, fed me and even had my coffee ready in the morning for me for three months! Even though it seemed like the worst time in my life, it was a turning point in finding, me!
One day, my friend says to me, let’s watch a movie tonight and I said, okay. What else was I going to do?? It was the movie, Blue Crush and I’m thinking to myself, you’ve got to be kidding, right? That’s an 80’s movie!! So, we watched it and as the movie continued, I started to identify myself as the young surfer woman. I had so many positive plans for my life when I was her age (22). I had motivation, passion, love for life, thoughts of conquering the world and being happy! In the movie, she had dreams of winning surfing competitions and being the best until some life events happened which changes her direction. She met a young man whom she started to change her life for, just as I had done, I thought. But I did it over and over again. She was confused and unhappy and so was I. She finally realized in order to make herself happy she had to believe in herself and make choices for her life and not for someone else.
Something in me was stirring during the movie, I was beginning to see something for my life but I wasn’t sure what it was. By the end of the movie I realized, it was up to me to change my life. I looked at my friend and asked him, “did you put that movie on for me on purpose?” He smiled at me and nodded.
My change, my small step was going to change the direction of my life. I joined a cycling club, at least I thought it was a cycling club. It was a multi sport club, others would call it a triathlon club. All I knew was I wanted to start riding my bike like I did when I got my first two wheeler at 5 yeas old. Oh the thrill of pedaling on my own power and moving fast with the wind in my face and the miles flying by me. I felt free at last!!
That moment, the “ah-ha” moment of, “this is my life, I have a choice how I want to live it and I have the power to change my life” was powerful. It wasn’t like a lightening bolt, it was a knowing, a calm understanding of seeing the next step. Not my whole future but the next small step to take to move my life forward.
I took the “next small step” and joined the club. I eventually became a triathlete, a certified USA Triathlon coach , raced and placed in triathlons and ran several marathons. That was accomplished in the next five years, Holy Moley!
You can take the next small step too! It only takes one step to change your life!